Treat it well

Hey so I'm back only for the NewYear Eve (I still might be gone for a while..) and a last post for 2009.

This year I'm sure it had treated me good..I don't know about most of you but around half of the people I follow in twitter are hoping 2009 aren't ending so soon yet and aren't looking forward to 2010. Or at least that's what I stumbled upon..

This is a very long post..or should I say the longest post I've ever written. Hehe

But whatever it is let's just all hope that 2010 will be a good year for everyone including me =)

I have not much thing to say about 2009 because my life has always been dull and all that and me not giving a care in the world what is going on with my life hahaha.

In comparison to 2008, I've been a stronger person this year. I lost a dog this year, Pika but its not as bad as I lost Cookie last year because the lost of Cookie had taught me so much to not take things too seriously and to not take things for granted also to not always rely on others. So, I overcome the lost of Pika with an open heart and moved on. I guess you'll never learn to be more independent and more open minded and more determined with what you want in your life without losing the ones you love. With 'losing' I meant losing the one forever and you'll never get to see him/her again. I'd like to share a quote with you from what I heard in Grey's Anatomy. "The people that screw up the most are the people who don't know what they want" Weird as it is, mine is a dog..its quite fascinating how a dog can change my life so much. I don't think all of you agree with what I said the previous sentence because I've never really talked much about myself..

This year I grew much more closer to my close friends namely Joanne Jian Lynn and Nithiyah. As all of you know, Joanne is my bestfriend Jian Lynn is my very close friend and Nithiyah is also my very close friend. Having them is the closest thing I have to a family. Not that I don't have a family I'm just saying if you're not with you family and the JJLN gives you the family feeling because with them I can do whatever I want. So, thank you to you guys that'd been tolerating with my brat attitude and those no-reason-mood-swings and that spoilt-girl attitude.

I would like to thank J for being my bestfriend. Never in my life I'd thought that I would find someone so giving and tolerates with me so much. Though I'd not always been there for you but you do know that I'm someone like that and if I've always been there for you I'm not the person I actually am but I'm pretending to be someone I'm not. Its funny to sometimes see how people actually mistaken us as a couple as in we're both not straight and all that. Maybe its the closeness of us that made people think so and me and you without a boyfriend. Hmmm. I may not be the one you go to first everytime you face a problem but you're always the first person I go to whenever I have a problem(which is rare HAHAHA) and you never fail to care about me (eventhough I don't like it LOL) but at least I have someone like you. You're like the only person I have so I'd rely on you so much(and that is bad).  I thank you for everything you've ever did for me(LIKE HOW I CAN PSYCHO YOU HAHAHA) and me being an ass for ignoring you in school(which now you know the reason why). Hi yah, I just thank you for everything.

I would also like to thank JL for not beat the hell out of me everytime I annoy you hahaha. Though we always "fight" but deep deep down we care for each other. I know its so weird telling you all these stuff but hahaha. I love it how you and I have a lot of things in common like our life. I mean not the dull part lah. Its the stuff we do. I love it how we have chemistry in doing art stuffs its like you don't have to seek approval of me doing a project we're in together because I know you'll do a great job with it and you and I have the same taste in art. I'm jealous of how you take care of your body like you never fail to drink at least 2 big bottles of water everyday and drinks those enzymes. I wish I could be more like you in that way. Not the part you didn't *coughcoughcough* when you go to school. But whatever it is you're my bestie.

Not forgetting to thank Nithiyah(in short Nut) for being my friend. And I've realised that you don't hit me back when I hit you!! Hahaha! You're like the person I like to annoy in school. Though you might not read this because you only come my blog for pictures, THANKS for being my friend Nut. I know you're feeling the goosebumps now for seeing me thanking you for being my friend. Tolerating me with my brat attitude is hard but you pulled it through! Hehe Thank you again, bestie.

This year, I managed to come out of my comfort zone for initiating a conversation with other people and making new friends. I'm still a newbie in it because I've always been a very reserved person and I think too much like what will others think of me when I initiate a talk with them like how I look like when I talk and do I look very fake when I smile to them and all those nonsense. I've learnt to put them aside and crawl a little bit out of my shell. I'd always ignore other people(that I admit) and not talking to them which makes them think that I'm a bitch that doesn't socialize with other people. Therefore I made quite a number of new friends/grow closer to my hi-bye friends. I will not mention their names in here because I think its unfair to those if I'd miss their name out. So yeah..

This year I also managed to say "Thank you-s and Sorry-s" I'm not a big fan of saying Thank you and Sorry. To me its a big step because I feel really weird saying thank you and sorry to other people. Maybe that's one of the fact that I do not have a lot of friend. I don't like how others think of me when I don't speak to them like how they would comment me as a not friendly person and all that. Its like when they actually do talk to me, they'd be like "Hey I didn't know you're friendly yaduh yaduh". I don't like it. I'm always seen as the girl that sits alone in the corner in a bunch of people. People always not talk to me eventhough sometimes they want to because of my face. Its either they say that my face is too scary to talk to or that they think that I will ignore them when they talk to me because I have a "pretty face". Just so you know I didn't make that up that's what I get from people, seriously.

This year I didn't make any enemies. Or not that I know of because I didn't have a fight with people?

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I wanna thank my mum, for taking good care of me and always try to make the best for me. Though you've spoilt me mum, but I know where my limits are. I love you mummy and I don't know where else I can find a mum like you who have we've so much in common. I don't think there's any other mother and daughter having so many things in common as we have. Its a pleasure to know that you understand what I need when I need it. I also wanna thank my father for always tolerating with me and I know that I am the "happy-fruit(Kai Xing Guo)" to you. It is so heartwarming to see you smile to me and your mood change 360degrees when you see me after having a bad day. I love you daddy.

So many people I want to thank.....I'm just going to summarize the list..TO EVERYONE WHO HAS PLAYED A PART IN MY LIFE, THANK YOU SO MUCH!

Its quite hard to believe that a year had passed so quickly. I still remember I need to sit for my major examination this year and now, I'm about to learn new things in 2010 and take another major exam when I'm 17.

Of course my 2009 is not just it..but still I'd like to reserve myself more and not reveal too much about what's going on with my life..

So..

Have a great year ahead!

I'd like to share another quote. Its my-quote-to-live-by. I hope that it helps to you too.

"Live right now, just be yourself. It doesn't matter if you're good enough for someone else"